Indurative

This time, last year, things were so different. Allah knows all the emotions inside this fragile heart that felt like bloated. How i've been through my sleepless night, my face bumped onto pillow to cry silently, when i lost all my focus in doing anything. But slowly i embrace the positives and learn to live life again. This year, 2015 was a year full of laughters and adventure. A year i've decided not to date with anyone, i let myself free. It was miraculously worked somehow when i make myself away from negativity.

Bukit Kutu // 101115

I have so many reasons nak pergi hiking this 2nd time. Kau belajar jadi berani jln dlm hutan dgn keadaan gelap which is kau redha apa pun yang kau langgar or pijak, kau belajar jadi sabar dengan track penuh lumpur and mencacak buat kau letih, kau belajar bersyukur bila kau solat tgh2 hutan dgn apa yg ada kau sujud dkt tanah, kau belajar ukhuwah fillah dgn kwn2 baru and kwn2 lama bila dorg keep tny kau ok ke tak, kau belajar merendah diri bila kau dah tak kisah kena kotor lumpur or air hujan sebab kau sedar tuh semua nikmat Allah.

Walaupun sakit2 badan and kaki still terasa sampai skrg, i still found that bila pergi hiking actually buat aku lebih bersyukur dgn setiap nikmat Allah. Aku bukan pergi hiking sbb bangga mampu hiking tapi everytime aku buat something, aku nak pastikan the main niat aku sbb Allah.

Mungkin aku lambat sedar rupanya tak rugi pun bila kita buat something sebab Allah, yup nak betulkan diri nak lawan nafsu tuh ya Rabbi Tuhan je yg tau payahnye. I've wasted tahun tahun sebelum ni buat something sebab manusia, perit kecewa tanggung sendiri tapi in the end Allah jugak aku cari.

For those who willing to stay with me till now and tak putus2 doakan share mcm2 ilmu, i have no better words nak sampaikan but u'll remain in my DOA. Amiin, in shaa Allah.

Biar yang datang mampu buat terbang di awangan, aku masih mahu usaha kejar cinta Tuhan yang utama. Ingatkan aku Tuhan sebaik baik perancang, tolong.